A (not so welcome) distraction.

So, as it has been blatantly clear from my previous posts, I have been feeling lousy and pretty sad and sorry for myself.

But in the last day (well, a bit less than a full day), I have had a distraction. Not a welcome one by any means, but a distraction none the less.

My poor little miss fell over while jumping on the trampoline last night with hubby and the little man. Now, let me clarify, she fell over on the trampoline, she didn't fall off it. It wasn't a big fall, but as soon as it happened she was upset. Hubby took her inside, she was very upset and kept calling for me. It was time for bed anyway, so I thought she may have just been really tired. We got her ready for bed and I fed her to sleep in her room. But as I was feeding her to sleep, it was clear something wasn't right. She was unsettled and kept whimpering in pain. She wouldn't move her right arm, and even while feeding kept breathing funny, in pain. She did eventually fall asleep, but as I suspected, she didn't stay asleep long. We got her up, and she desperately wanted to sleep. She would whimper in pain for a bit, then drift off to sleep for a bit. That continued for a while, and eventually she woke up properly.

At about 9pm I took her into emergency at the local hospital. Luckily it was very quiet, and we were seen almost straight away. Initially the doctor thought it may have been something minor that, while painful, would resolve itself. But seeing as she wasn't sure, she ordered an x-ray. We waited for that, and of course when we went in for that, the radiologist asked if I was pregnant. I couldn't be in the room when they took the image, so poor little miss had to lie on the bed with these two strange men around her, and for the second image she had to sit on one of their laps while they took the image. She wasn't happy about it of course, but she did amazingly considering.
We went into the waiting room again to wait for results, and were quickly called in. It turns out she had an undisplaced supracondylar fracture of her right elbow. She had a cast put on, and then we were sent on our way home. We were only at the hospital for an hour - pretty good! The little miss did such an amazing job, and we were lucky to have a very friendly doctor who knew what to do to put her at ease. She even played Peppa Pig on her phone for the little miss while the cast went on.

It was a little bit of a rough night, but not too bad. Lots of breastfeeds. She was very tired today though.

This morning we went into the orthopaedic clinic at the hospital for a plaster check. As the doctor last night suggested, she needed her plaster re-done. She needed to have her elbow more bent, almost at a 90 degree angle. So she has that, and also has a sling now, all tucked under her t-shirt. This morning's trip to the hospital was not quite as good as last night. The little miss was scared and tired and the doctor we had was a loud man (she's scared of men she doesn't know at the best of times). All of that meant a lot of tears and screaming - but we got through it. We have another appointment a week from Friday.

The poor little miss is so tired. She fell asleep in hubby's arms on the walk into the hospital, and again in the car on the way home. I got her to sleep in bed once we got home and she slept for about an hour. She has been very quiet and struggling to do much for herself, but she's otherwise okay.

So, that has been my distraction. Obviously not a welcome distraction, but a distraction none the less. It has snapped me, if only temporarily, out of my sorry for myself frame of mind. I have felt pretty nauseous all day, but it has been much more in the background because I've been focusing on her so much.
We have about three weeks with her in the cast - which means she'll be in it over Christmas and into the New Year. A bit sad, but she's coping well so far. She's perked up a lot this afternoon. She and the little man are currently playing shops together. The little man is being lovely with her too - very considerate of things she may not be able to do for herself. Very sweet.

It's so wonderful that I am growing another one of these beautiful little people.