Cravings!

I don't remember having cravings in my previous two pregnancies, but I'm having some this time. I have been dreaming about KFC chips ever since Friday when I drove past a KFC and smelt it. I have also been having vision of roast meat smothered in gravy with chips or roast potato. Yum!! I haven't given in to either yet, but I imagine I will be over the next few days!

That familiar feeling

This morning I woke up feeling a bit off. This isn't uncommon these days, but it hasn't been happening every day either. I made myself some toast with butter and honey, took a bite... and thought it just didn't quite taste right. I ate it, but didn't particularly enjoy it. I decided it would be a good idea to have some fruit with my breakfast too, so I sliced up a pear. Even as I got the pear out of the fridge I was feeling a bit off. I ate some of the pear, slowly, but it really wasn't enjoyable. I'm not to the point of gagging, but this is definitely a familiar feeling. It seems as though I may be moving onto the food aversions portion of this pregnancy. Oh joy. Over the next few weeks I can look forward to not enjoying any food, and slowly discovering more and more foods that I cannot tolerate even looking at without gagging. That's if it follows my previous two pregnancies that is. And for some reason, all the foods I end up having full blown aversions to are always healthy. Very annoying. But, as annoying as it is, it does give me some comfort that this bubba is a sticky one.

I must be excited!

I must be excited about this pregnancy. I'm 5 weeks 3 days pregnant and I just bought a pair of maternity jeans online! And I've been browsing ASOS for maternity clothing too. I'm probably not going to need maternity clothes for another few months. Oh well, I guess I'll be prepared haha!

Anniversary, Birthday and stuff

I've had a few busy days. Tuesday was my wedding anniversary. Eight years married, and fourteen+ years together. I got my first ever dozen roses, and we went out for dinner which was really nice. We talked about the pregnancy a bit - we don't get to talk about it that often openly because we're not telling people yet. Hubby is still pretty excited from what I can tell, though I think he occasionally forgets the finer points. He keeps trying to offer me alcohol haha!

Yesterday was my birthday, and it was a very full day. Lots of food! I went out to the movies in the evening with a couple of friends and didn't get out till after 11pm. Very late night for me, especially after waking at 5am. I almost nodded off in the movie a couple of times. I am feeling almost hungover today I am so tired, and as a result I have very little patience with the kids. Have already yelled at them a couple of times which isn't like me.

So, today is going to be a quiet one, which means I can catch up here.

I've been feeling more emotional than usual the last few days. I find myself tearing up over random things that wouldn't usually affect me that way, and today I honestly feel like I need to shut myself in my room and have a big, messy, loud cry. Being really tired doesn't help either.

I'm so over breastfeeding the little miss. She is 2.5 and very demanding about it. I am so ready for her to wean, but actively weaning her feels like too much effort. I'm desperately hoping she'll wean while I'm pregnant, and soon too. Already, I'm finding the feeling of her feeding pretty awful. I'm hoping this doesn't develop into full blown breastfeeding aversion like I had when I was pregnant with the little miss and still feeding the little man. That was absolutely awful. I remember curling my toes and gritting my teeth through feeds. Awful *shudders*.

I've had moments over the past few days where I haven't felt pregnant at all. I did another pregnancy test just to try and feel like I was, but it didn't really help. However, this morning I found the diary I kept when I was pregnant with the little man, and reading that has really helped. All the symptoms I mention (slight nausea, bloating, gassiness, diarrhoea, being emotional, feeling a bit weak and tired, etc) I am having now too. Even the feelings, the worries, etc are the same. It definitely helped put my mind at ease. Yes, I am pregnant, And yes, what I'm experiencing is normal.
Another thing I have noticed recently is that I'm a little off food in general. No food aversions, but the whole process of eating just isn't as appealing as it usually is. I'm finding myself drawn to savoury food, and kind of just tolerating the sweet stuff rather than really enjoying it. I bought lollies at the lolly shop for the movie last night, and I barely touched them. Before I had some of these cheese flavoured rice cracker things that taste like cheezels, and man they were good!

I'm finding being pregnant without telling those around me kind of lonely. It's all I think about, and all I want to do is talk about it, but I can't. I still want to wait to tell most people. Christmas for our families (I'll be 9 weeks), and 12 weeks for everyone else. I do, however, plan on telling my little sister much sooner. Next week in fact. I had always told her I would tell her when I was pregnant next, and also, she moves to Melbourne just after Christmas, so this seems like something nice we can share before she leaves us. I probably would have told her before now, except that we have a couple of cousins visiting and she is busy with them. Plus, I didn't want to make it any more difficult for her to keep my secret.
Once my sister knows, I'll be able to utilise her as a babysitter so I can go to the doctors for my blood test and to get a referral for a scan, etc. I'm really looking forward to telling her. To telling someone! I should be able to in five or six days.

The last thing I wanted to talk about was how I'm going with maintaining my healthy lifestyle whilst pregnant. I'm going okay. Exercising most days in some form or other. Eating not quite as good as it should be, but it was my birthday, so I think that's a good excuse. I'm still trying to wrap my head around the idea that exercise is not only safe, but beneficial in pregnancy. For some reason I have this idea in my head I shouldn't be exercising, despite having read plenty to support the opposite. The overheating being a risk has me worried though. You do overheat when you exercise! So, how much is too much? I did Group Kick at the gym last night, and that's a pretty full on class. I got pretty hot and sweaty, took it easier when I felt I needed to, and I kept hydrated throughout... but I still got pretty hot. Is that okay? I just don't know.

Anyway, that is all. Now, I just need to get through this day. I would love a nap!

5 weeks

5 weeks today!

I caved and bought another pregnancy test yesterday, a digital one. I think I wanted to do it for the novelty of it more than anything. I took the test yesterday afternoon, and watched the loading icon flash. Eventually that magic word, 'pregnant' appeared, and after some more flashing of the loading icon, '2-3' (meaning 2-3 weeks from conception, which is 4-5 weeks pregnant). I already know I'm pregnant. I believe I'm pregnant. But seeing that word instead of a second line really makes a difference. There's no second-guessing about line darkness, etc, you're just pregnant or not. I bought a two pack of these tests, so I may do another one in a week and see if the number changes, haha!

I mentioned in a previous post that I really wanted to make sure I stayed as fit and healthy as possible this pregnancy. I've done a bit of reading on exercise in pregnancy, and it seems that most exercise is still safe to do. I'm a runner, so I've done a bit of reading on that subject too. Running should be fine - the main concern in the first trimester is overheating, so as long as I don't push too hard and keep hydrated, I should be okay. So, I've been running, done Pilates and will keep doing a bit of strength training (going to Tone Up at the gym tonight). Basically, it seems I don't have to change my exercise routine too much, but just not to push any further than what I'm already doing (no training for races for example), and listen to my body. For now, while I'm still feeling relatively normal, I'll keep doing what I'm doing.

I weighed myself this morning: 71.7kg. I've been wavering between 71-72kg+, so that seems about right. I guess I'll put that as my starting weight for this pregnancy. It may not be my ideal weight, but it's 30kg lighter than I was a couple of years ago, and about 20kg+ lighter than I was at the start of both my previous pregnancies, so it feels pretty good to me! Also, I'm starting this pregnancy at about the fittest I've ever been in my life. I'm not as fit as I was when I ran the half marathon a few months ago, but I can run an okay distance and I lift weights, and do a lot of core/pelvic floor work thanks to Pilates. I'm in a good place.

My plan is to keep doing what I'm doing while I feel okay. Once I hit second trimester, I'd like to take up pregnancy yoga too. And as I get heavier, I might try and replace some of my running with swimming and walking.

I'm excited to actually be fit and healthy through this pregnancy, instead of overweight and sedentary like the last two times.

The healthy eating side I'm doing okay. Not perfect, but I'm not binging on crap food either. I'm trying to stuff myself full of fruit and veg while I can still tolerate eating them. In my previous pregnancies, I had some serious food aversions - I couldn't eat most fruit and veg, and even the sight of some vegetables was enough to make me gag. I might be lucky this time and not have the same problem, but if I do, at least I'm getting plenty now.

5 weeks pregnant today means the starts of my belly pics! No difference in my body yet, so today's photo is more of a starting/before photo. I'll aim to wear the same top each photo, and hopefully be able to do some kind of cool time lapse thing at the end!

Here I am, 5 weeks pregnant. No changes in my body that I can tell yet (yes, I already have a bit of lumpy tummy, but that has nothing to do with being pregnant). Also looking very tired, but that may be because I hadn't long woken up haha!

I'm really looking forward to seeing my belly grow and change!

Disbelief and distraction

I'm feeling pretty good for the most part. Slightly queasy here and there, but so mild it barely seems worth mentioning. I know I'm probably going to regret saying this, but I kind of wish morning sickness would kick in. Not because I enjoy it, quite the opposite in fact... but because it's something that will make me feel pregnant.

I don't feel pregnant at all. I'm still in a bit of disbelief. The four tests I've done have all been a very definite positive, but I still can't help but think perhaps it's a mistake. I'm trying to distract myself and keep busy, because all I seem to be able to think about is being pregnant. I need to remember though, it has only been four days since I found out. I guess there is an adjustment period, and that's where I am.

I'll be 5 weeks tomorrow (provided my dates are right), so I think I'll take my first belly pic for this pregnancy! My plan is to take one every week, and at the end I'll be able to do a bit of a montage or time lapse or something cool like that.

Anyway, I better go and attempt to distract myself for another day.

Can I just say...

 ...I cannot believe it. I cannot get my head around being pregnant again. That is all. Good night.

Tired, already?

I'm tired today. I've been pottering about the house getting housework done, but I really can't be bothered. It could be that I have just returned home after a week away. Or it could be the incredibly disgusting weather we are having. Or, perhaps this pregnancy is starting to kick in. I am going to the gym tonight to do a run and then Pilates - I hope I can get through them okay. I'm sure I will. I'm sure once I've been home a few days and settled back in, I'll feel back to normal.

I have been starting to feel a few twinges down there today though. Nothing bad, just the odd sensation now and then. I also did another pregnancy test (I had one left, so I think I just did it to use them up, haha!). Still a very quick appearing second line. Instant really.

This morning, before hubby left for work, I did a quick supermarket run. After being away there was very little edible food in the house. Even the milk was out of date. Plus, I realised I should probably pick up some pregnancy multi-vitamins. So I did.

Apparently these vitamins come in vanilla flavour now... I don't really get that. It just makes them smell weird.  So, two ridiculously large capsules every morning with breakfast. I remember with previous pregnancies that they became very hard to swallow without gagging once morning sickness kicked in. Uh, morning sickness. I hope it skips this pregnancy, cause it sucks. It really, really sucks.

I think this pregnancy is starting to sink in. Slowly. I'm still in a bit of disbelief. I want to tell everyone, but at the same time I don't. So far, the only people who know are hubby, Mel, anyone who read my announcement on BellyBelly, and a couple of other friends, Bell and Erica, who I told by text today. Oh, and my midwife Anna. I sent her a text today too. If I am going to keep it quiet for awhile, it's going to be tough keeping it a secret - especially over Christmas where everyone is going to be offering up alcohol and all sorts of things I shouldn't be eating. I may tell my parents and sister, and hubby's mum sooner than later. It's just easier than trying to hide it. But everyone else, I'll try and hold out to the magic 12 week mark. Fingers and toes crossed this bubba is a sticky one. I've been lucky so far, let's hope I continue to be!

Well, there you go...

Yesterday I returned home after a week away in warm, stormy Queensland with my two kidlets. I stayed with my good friend, Mel (who is really more of a sister). We had a really good time. We didn't do anything much, but it was just nice to be in each other's company. Plus I got to meet her newest addition, 2 month old baby Felix.

While I was up there visiting, I started having some, shall we say, suspicions. On the drive to the airport yesterday I mentioned these to Mel... who quickly encouraged me to do something to confirm my suspicions once and for all.

I'm being vague, I know.

Mel and I found a pharmacy at the airport, and not long after my suspicions were confirmed... I am pregnant with baby number three! I never thought I'd find myself doing a test in an airport toilet, but sometimes you just want to share a moment with a good friend!

I sent hubby a text telling him I had a surprise I was bringing back with me, and not long after I caught my flight home. During the flight I brainstormed on and off, ways to break the news to hubby. In the end, I snuck off to the toilet at the airport back home and did another test. Another very quick appearing positive - yup, definitely pregnant.

At home, while hubby was out getting me ice cream (haha), I wrapped up the test...

Later, I asked him if he wanted his surprise and I brought out this little package. He had no clue... he unwrapped it (after much difficulty, it was very well wrapped), and unfortunately opened the pee-end of the test first... oops. He was very happy though. He said "That is awesome" and gave me a big hug, and then listened intently as I told him all about finding out for myself.

There is so much I want to do with this pregnancy. I want to really attempt to enjoy it, as I'm pretty sure this will be our last baby. I want to keep a record of it too, which I where this blog comes in! I'll post lots of belly pics, and how I'm feeling along the way. Also, I really want to make this pregnancy a healthy one. My previous two pregnancies I was very overweight, unfit and unhealthy. Now I'm not, so I really want to make an effort to keep myself that way. I plan to continue exercising as best I can, and keep eating well in the face of the dreaded morning sickness. All of this and more... This is really just a place for me to waffle on about my pregnancy when no one else probably wants to hear about it.

It is very early days yet. I think I'm due around July 28th, putting my at 4 weeks, 3 days today. This could all very well turn pear shaped still... But I'm still allowing myself to feel excited. It is exciting! And I am looking forward to an happy, healthy pregnancy, birth and beautiful new bubba.