14 weeks 4 days (bit late this week)

We were away on our little holiday when I was 14 weeks, so I missed my usual weekly update. We got back on Tuesday evening (today is Friday), but it has taken me this long to actually think about writing here.

Overall I am feeling good. Really good. Back to my normal self good. I'm not nauseous or sick anymore at all, and the tiredness that was still hitting me occasionally seems to be going too. I'm getting more and more back to eating normally, and I am mostly managing to do my everyday stuff without falling into a heap at the end of the day.

I guess I'm in that in-between period where the sickness has passed, but I'm not feeling movements yet - so most of the time I just don't feel pregnant at all. The only reminder I have is my expanding belly and a few uterus twinges every now and then. I am definitely enjoying feeling normal again - having been so sick and tired for so long (what was it, like 6 weeks or so) I am appreciating being able to enjoy food and do the grocery shopping and keep the house looking somewhat presentable (instead of the bombshell it was for awhile back there). Just normal stuff that I can appreciate because I am feeling well again.

I weighed myself yesterday morning and this morning, and both times came up at 71.25kg. Oops, I appear to have packed it on over the last week and a half! I can blame the holiday on that, and probably just the fact that I am eating normally again, so eating more. I mean, I get up and have breakfast in the morning, and then need a second breakfast before 9am - I get so hungry! Now that I am feeling good again, and now that we're home from the holiday - I have been trying to make more of an effort to eat well. I've been making myself salad sandwiches for lunch, and our nightly meals have had a lot of veggies in them too (thermomix 'fried' rice one night, a steamed salmon and veggie 'stir fry' the next). I haven't attempted plain steamed veg yet... I might wait a while longer for that. Fruit is slowly becoming okay. I've been enjoying watermelon and crunchy grapes. So, I'm getting there. I may actually manage my healthy pregnancy after all...
As for exercise - I didn't do any conscious exercise while we were away, but we did walk a little here and there. Since we've been back I have gone for one walk, and plan to tomorrow morning with my mum. When we have more money (next pay month) I plan on starting pregnancy yoga, and as for the gym... well, I may have accidentally not had enough in the account for the direct debit last time, so I'm not sure where my membership actually stands. If it's still good, I should go in. I think I'm nervous about it because it's been so long since I've been in. I almost feel like I'll get in trouble haha! But if it is still fine, I'll go in and get a pregnancy-friendly program done up for me.

On a side-note to the exercise thing... when I was going for my walk yesterday morning, I noticed for the first time ever that my pelvis felt a little sore. Nothing too bad, but definitely noticeable. I had intended to see a chiro this pregnancy anyway - just to help line everything up with the hopes of it meaning baby will be in a good position for birth - but having this pain has prompted me to consider making an appointment sooner than later. Again, cash is tight this month, but next month - definitely.

February is lining up to be a big month, for pregnancy/baby stuff and just in general for our family. Firstly, the little man is starting school! He has kinder orientation on Feb 5th, and then starts properly on Feb 10th at 10am.  We bought his school uniforms on Wednesday, and he tried them on... and oh my!

I'm still processing how I feel about it. I'm definitely excited, and he is excited. But at the same time, this is the first big letting go of my first baby. He's never even been to childcare, and the longest I've ever been away from him was over one weekend last year when I went to QLD with just the little miss. It's going to be an emotional time.

The same week the little man starts school, he also has his birthday. He turns 5 (that's one whole hand we keep telling him). It's just so unfair how quickly the time goes. My sister is planning on coming home for a night around his birthday too so she can see him. That will be really nice to have her here.

Also, the same week the little man starts school, I can finally book my first appointment with my midwife! Hooray, I've been hanging out for that. It will be so nice to see her again and start talking about the birth and checking in on bubba bump. Less exciting, I have a phone booking in appointment with the hospital that week too.

And I guess the other big thing for Feb (which may or may not happen in Feb) is that my scan will be around then. I still need to go to the doctors to get my referral for that scan. I'll be 18 weeks on Feb 24, so I guess my scan could be in Feb, or early March. Soon anyway. I'm still undecided about finding out the gender or not. We knew with the little man. We wanted to know with the little miss, but she had other ideas. I like the idea of a surprise, but I also feel finding out the gender helps a little with bonding and preparation. I guess we will see.

Now, I didn't get a proper belly shot in my usual clothes and location this week, but I did sneak a belly shot in the bathroom of a cafe while we were away...

Some days I think I look super pregnant, other days I think I just look extra fat... Anyway, its only a matter of time before it's unmistakeable. I have to admit I do feel quite self conscious sometimes - like I feel people looking at me trying to decide if I'm pregnant or just fat. It doesn't help that I am finding myself doing exactly that at the moment! Or that I saw a very slim mum at the school the other day who I overheard is due the same time as me, and she just looks lovely and slim with this cute little tummy just starting to show... and she was onto baby number 4! Anyway...

I guess the last thing I want to talk about this week is the emotional aspect of this pregnancy. I haven't touched on it much, and to be honest I haven't spent much time thinking about it... which isn't good. I really wanted to make an effort to enjoy and appreciate this pregnancy, especially as it's likely to be our last. All through the first trimester I was just in survival mode, and I guess I didn't let myself get too attached to the pregnancy/baby because it was early days and I was well aware it could all not work out. The scan was awesome and I felt wonderful for a few days after that... And since then I've just been cruising by. I am aware and appreciative of the physical side - I like watching my belly expand (even if I'm not a fan of the current shape) and I like those little twinges I get, because it's a reminder. I like thinking ahead and realising I get to have all those baby cuddles again... but I guess what I want to do is take more time to consciously sit and be in the moment and maybe even talk (even if just in mind) with this baby growing inside of me. Something for me to focus on I guess. Perhaps I will find it easier when I start feeling movements... (though I think that is still many weeks away with this silly anterior placenta).

So that is me... I will write again in a few days I guess!